@RightMeow said in Bannings:
I’m not posting hatred, but what I will say is the observations that you are being given - are not fully correct. I don’t think they are fully lies either. I think it is a selective bias being given to you.
I don’t think you meant this the way that it comes across, but I want to clarify: yes, a fair amount of what is being spouted is 100% fabrication, not based in fact at all. Much of what she says about me is complete falsehood, rather than a side of a story. I am not the only one treated like this. One of the biggest, most hurtful ways that the entire thing against me was accomplished was by somebody hearing her story, my flat denial, and the person in question going ‘whelp, two sides to every story’. But there wasn’t. I had not done anything except exist to have her making shit up about me.
This narrative is hurtful when in regards to people that were attacked and hurt with lies. Particularly given the “both sides” argument was specifically weaponized in this case. She RELIES on this, because people don’t ever believe that somebody just makes shit up wholecloth, that it has to be based in SOMETHING, that the person she’s lying about just can’t own their part in the conflict. That is how the whole scam works, by taking advantage of the benefit of the doubt and the “A, B, and the truth” narrative. We all know logs can be faked, but who ever thinks the one their friend sent them was?
I existed. This brought us into conflict. She lost her shit at me. I stood my ground. She started spouting crap to other people that had no basis in reality. Nothing. Made up things I said. Fabricated stories about things I did. Some people believed her. I, having just dealt with a round of that shit IRL, left. Years later, some person comes at me on a channel utterly unhinged, and then I get Talked To about having driven her off of a game before and not engaging. Who? Her? What? Oh fuck, I remember this ride. I’m not leaving this time, it will eventually come out. We had a repeat of the first time. I held my ground. It eventually came out.
I do not, will not, agree that this warrants that two sides bullshit. I did not do the things she accuses me of. I did not instigate a conflict. AT MOST, I had something she wanted – and that is not instigation. Anything that could be called “fairly damning” even a LITTLE BIT is fabrication. I was there.
Anyone here can tell people that I own a whole lot of my shares of conflicts. I am not above taking responsibility when I fuck up, because I DO fuck up. Had I done to her what she says I did to her I would be VERY SORRY, because I cannot cope with hurting people like that. I freak out when I think I MIGHT have hurt somebody’s feelings for actual seriousness. I like to fall on my sword if it will make somebody smile again.
The absolute hardest situation (gamewise, lol) I have dealt with in recent history was hard because my ask, “please leave me alone, please stop talking to me” was causing somebody else pain. The conflict spiraled up SHARPLY because protecting me meant hurting somebody I cared about and even though “please leave me alone” should not be hurtful it was still impossible and I got hysterical and the repercussions of that took a LONG time to resolve. Hell, that’s part of why I’m so upset about the current MSB thing – somebody I care about is hurting, but I have to, have to, have to take care of me and do what I feel is right. And that sucks, but there’s just no way around it.
I am messy, but I’m not cruel.
Long story short: Knowing (a very small amount of) what she says about me (and how untruthful that is), what she says about everyone else is just as suspect. Is it POSSIBLE that some of it is true? I guess maybe. Don’t think much of the really outrageous stuff is likely, though.