People Doing Things

[Narson]

@Tez said in People Doing Things:

@Narson said in People Doing Things:

ETA: Wait @Roz - I am not ridiculous. Vinegar bread is good eats. It just needs some excellent marketting.

INTO THE CORNER WITH YAM

As long as it has Casper. You are always better in the corner with Casper pissing out, than in the room with Casper pissing in.

[Dreampipe]

@hellfrog When I first got started, I was in a very toxic situation with several players who I’d thought had my best interests in mind. I didn’t come to realize these things till Hellfrog messaged me out of the blue and asked if all was good. I attribute the fact that I stuck in this hobby to her, as I don’t think I would’ve been able to pull back without being told in no uncertain terms how much independence I really had.

@Herja Some of my fondest IC relationships have been with Herja’s PCs. Beyond that, her confidence and helpfulness has helped me out in a ton of uncertain situations, and I always feel like I can speak to her comfortably and openly. Which is such a rare quality to find, and I’m very grateful for it.

@Apos Has always been very straightforward and real when I needed help or clarification. Thank you for creating such a vibrant world that has been apart of my life for years.

@Roz and @sao have both been very big inspirations for the whack-ass storylines that I’ve gotten involved in over the years. Likewise, I can pick out scenes we’ve had that stuck with my characters as hugely meaningful for development and high points of fun for myself personally.

@farfalla While I don’t get the chance to play with them much, the few scenes I’ve had with Eleanor on Arx have been fantastic and emotional. They’re things that I think changed my character’s outlook significantly and I cherish that.

@Meg I got invited to her discord server once and when I joined the voice channel everyone was making penis jokes. We played DBD and it was really fun. This was years ago but I still remember it fondly. I was also playing the survivor named Meg and immediately blundered the second I was in a chase with the killer.

@tieflinguist I’m not sure there’s anyone I can describe more as ‘ride or die’ in character. They’ve always been a joy to talk to and their characters are some of the most fun just to observe.

@Tori Their ascii work is incredible, but I’m sure everyone knows that by now. They’ve also always been very chill and very pleasant both ICly and OOCly. I can’t recommend playing with them enough.

@Snackness Thena was one of my favorite characters, and I loved my brief stint in the org she ran. Perpetual grump is a mood.

@crawfish I have my Victus-cat framed in my room and sometimes I look at it and go ‘hehehe’

[Narson]

I should probably do this, but I hope you know I hate every moment of it with my British heart.

I’ve already said my thanks to @Rathenhope but, really, he has been an absolute delight to get to know and represent some very important people at my wedding, and provide some wise council. He is just a thoroughly decent chap.

You know, I have had some disagreements with @Roz and @sao over random things, and I honestly can’t remember them or think they are that important. Oddly enough since they became friends we have been accused of being in a clique less, but I really value the views they have on life, and the insight they provide. It may seem odd to put them together, but actually they often approach things from different styles that I find amazing when put together in thinking about issues - I do struggle sometimes to think about the ‘people’ side of things. And they help me self regulate in some ways, and also never judge me too much when I don’t.

Which I guess brings us on to @Tez. Tez is someone super special, even if of course I’ll never tell her (mostly because she can’t hear me from down there). Tez is incredibly kind, but also so aware of people’s needs and sensitivities. I’ve never known someone so genuinely interested in what other people have going on, and how to make things better.

I guess that brings us on to @moo and Pax. The cool elder gods of nerdom. They are always so wise, so kind, so willing to lead by example into what being a good person is. Their patience to help others, to invite them onto their sofa - they are good people, and it is truly a humbling thing to call them friends. Timezones mean we never get to spend as much time chatting as I like, but I truly value every moment playing together.

@Yam and her Root Cellar Gang are just great - they run around and cause goblin chaos with me in a nice chill way. But also, Yam is such an amazing artist. Like, seriously amazing. She has more talent in a finger than is in my entire body, and if the world isn’t kinder to her, I will judge it.

Which also brings up @crawfish, who is a fantastic artist as well and has been very patient as an admin too. Really, the joy she has brought to people, including me, with her art is amazing. To the point that on my wall there are three things. My PhD and her art next to it.

The other bit of art is from @WhiteRaven - another amazing artist, a good friend and someone who I’m glad to have spoken to again in recent weeks after a while of distance. Such a kind person, who so embraces experiences and other cultures, and has such an inquisitive - and sharp - mind. Really has no limit.

@Apos For creating a place like Arx, and for having the story creativity to pull it off. There is real skill in how strands are pulled together, and everything really has worked.

@hellfrog My cool 30s friend. HF (and Puffin!) are great people who are just a delight to know. Puffin is a defender of all things worthy of defending, and HF is too in her own way. Yeah, she will get in a frog-with-a-knife fight with anyone who comes at her, but she is also so self reflective. No-one who has known HF for any amount of time can have any doubt that she is fantastic, creative and talented.

There are so many others I would mention - @Meg @farfalla @tsar - who I have gotten to know in the pandemic and who have been fantastic. Not because we always agree, but because we can disagree while respecting each others intents and aims. Because you are good people, and make me smile. And old friends - like @icanbeyourmuse or @Tributary - who I have got to RP with again in recent months and who have always been reliable and put up with my zany antics through the years. And shared many dog and cat pictures.

The final huzzah though is to @Snackness - who is such a lovely person to have been in an RP group with, and I will genuinely never forget threatening to tip over tables with her in very serious meetings. I am always sad when life takes Snackness away from the group, always so glad when it brings her back - and I really must do more to RP. The other is another part of that era of Faith family, and it is @Pyrephox. Pyre is a real genius, though Pyre will now deny that. They are so smart, so insightful, and so competent. They do great things, and RP well, and are always calm even when they don’t want to be. Pyre is the person I often wish I could be.

ETA: OK, I knew I’d forget people. And one of them is @Smile - who I’ve chatted to a lot and I’d like to think sometimes am helpful to. Despite their weird love of Zenos, they are a good person and should perhaps be a bit kinder to themselves than they are.

[farfalla]

@Dreampipe said in People Doing Things:

@farfalla While I don’t get the chance to play with them much, the few scenes I’ve had with Eleanor on Arx have been fantastic and emotional. They’re things that I think changed my character’s outlook significantly and I cherish that.

That one scene we had is probably my favorite ever Eleanor scene, tbh.

[crawfish]

@Narson said in People Doing Things:

Which also brings up @crawfish, who is a fantastic artist as well and has been very patient as an admin too. Really, the joy she has brought to people, including me, with her art is amazing. To the point that on my wall there are three things. My PhD and her art next to it.

UGH I WAS FINE AND THEN THIS

you got me you bastard

[Roz]

omg and PUFFIN i don’t think she’s here either but i desperately miss her attitude and stories and everything

[ten]

@Roz

My antennae were all a-tingle. Thanks! 🥰

[Snackness]

@Narson All Bob’s Burgers gifs aside, thank you. You have no idea how much I needed to hear that.

[tsar]

I feel like my original post was so short in comparison to all of these very lovely ones that have followed, lol.

EVERYONE KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU. OR LIKE YOU A LOT.

Unless we’re sworn enemies then I guess not but if I’ve ever made a joke in your general vicinity we are probably not sworn enemies.

Except for @Anhedonia

You know what this means.

(<3 I’m kidding)

[Narson]

@Snackness said in People Doing Things:

@Narson All Bob’s Burgers gifs aside, thank you. You have no idea how much I needed to hear that.

[Snackness]

@Narson

[Testament]

This thread has got me thinking. I have spoken out loud to the people in the mushing community I have valued, that have been important to me and deserve to be acknowledged for that. But, perception is a funny thing. We can all look at a person through different lenses, and while some of those perceptions are reflected in a positive light, others may have a completely different and negative view. We allow our perceptions, done unconsciously or not, to color the perceptions of those we speak to the most. The reverse is also true, that our own words and opinions and notions will be reflected in those we speak to. Sometimes see people differently than we normally would because of what we have heard, seen, and done to those we care about. Sometimes, it is very difficult to balance yourself in wanting be there for someone who is angry while holding no ill will towards the target.

Or perhaps you angry at someone for a long time, over something that happened a long time ago, and that entire character is defined by incident. Through my life, in particular this year, I have done a great amount of soul-searching, which I have documented in depth in other threads. More so than in other years. In my own personal venture to be a better person than I have been has brought me to a particular realization.

I hold onto too much anger. And rather than accept this and move beyond it, it festers. “No, this person is wrong and I will not let it go until everyone sees that. I won’t give you the satisfaction.” Until the anger at my self-perceived injustice pours out from my eyes like acid.

So, to stay true to the thread of ‘People Doing Things’, I am simply going to apologize to those I have held animosity in my heart. Or had. I have to let go, and over the past few months I have.

In 2017, on Arx, my favorite character was killed. Fergus was my favorite, and I had enjoyed playing him so much. Too much. In the October of that year, my fiance and I of a number of years broke up. To say that I was not myself is an understatement. That character was a lifeline in my world that had been shattered. And I had clung on too tightly. Losing that character was like the last string of a very frayed rope. I held a feeling of resentment towards @hellfrog for playing the NPC that killed the character that November for a long time after that. I am sorry for that, you didn’t deserve that from me.

More recently, the loss I suffered from a complicated friendship passing caused me to lash out at just about… a lot of people. And yes, my action was in distinctly poor taste. But in particular, @Herja. I am sorry for what I did, and I understand your response and accepted the outcome. But I’ve already talked enough about that on this board, no need to go over it again.

While I think we’ve managed to get past our previous and at times, vocal disagreements, I am sorry to @IoleRae for things I have said that was in poor taste or perhaps simply tone-deaf. I am happy that we are on a better level and speak freely, the apology needs to be said regardless.

To a minor extent, I’ve had public and vocal disagreements with @Roz, so I should apologize for those as well.

These are really the only ones that come to mind during my tenure on MSB and now here. There’s likely others, people that I have vented about in private, words said, in hindsight, I realize were not worth it. These are just people, as am I. I do not ask or seek out friendship, but to me? On my end, I hold no animosity and wish only peace for you.

[IoleRae]

I love everybody here. That is not hyperbole. I care very deeply about my community. Any disagreements I might have with anybody, any arguments we may have had, none of it ever displaces how much I care about people here individually or as a collective. Even when all of my good faith and heart for an individual has taught me that I have to stop engaging, I never stop caring. This has caused me much heartache over the years. Much, much heartache, but it’s also 100% worth it.

I have no brain, I have no memory, and I have a LOT of things that I’ve done that people deserve apologies for that will probably never see them (see: literal holes in my brain). I’m not consistent, I’m a total flake, and I have a temper. But I try. It’s the best I can do.

I can’t really do one of these lists right now in specific because seriously, I just don’t have the TIME. All of you. Everyone. You’re all on this list, because you’re HERE. (Or there, honestly; this is more about Existence than Where somebody might participate). Even if you’re just lurking, showing up matters a lot.

EVERYONE here existing has improved the lives of somebody they know absolutely nothing about.

[hellfrog]

@Testament said in People Doing Things:

This thread has got me thinking. I have spoken out loud to the people in the mushing community I have valued, that have been important to me and deserve to be acknowledged for that. But, perception is a funny thing. We can all look at a person through different lenses, and while some of those perceptions are reflected in a positive light, others may have a completely different and negative view. We allow our perceptions, done unconsciously or not, to color the perceptions of those we speak to the most. The reverse is also true, that our own words and opinions and notions will be reflected in those we speak to. Sometimes see people differently than we normally would because of what we have heard, seen, and done to those we care about. Sometimes, it is very difficult to balance yourself in wanting be there for someone who is angry while holding no ill will towards the target.

Or perhaps you angry at someone for a long time, over something that happened a long time ago, and that entire character is defined by incident. Through my life, in particular this year, I have done a great amount of soul-searching, which I have documented in depth in other threads. More so than in other years. In my own personal venture to be a better person than I have been has brought me to a particular realization.

I hold onto too much anger. And rather than accept this and move beyond it, it festers. “No, this person is wrong and I will not let it go until everyone sees that. I won’t give you the satisfaction.” Until the anger at my self-perceived injustice pours out from my eyes like acid.

So, to stay true to the thread of ‘People Doing Things’, I am simply going to apologize to those I have held animosity in my heart. Or had. I have to let go, and over the past few months I have.

In 2017, on Arx, my favorite character was killed. Fergus was my favorite, and I had enjoyed playing him so much. Too much. In the October of that year, my fiance and I of a number of years broke up. To say that I was not myself is an understatement. That character was a lifeline in my world that had been shattered. And I had clung on too tightly. Losing that character was like the last string of a very frayed rope. I held a feeling of resentment towards @hellfrog for playing the NPC that killed the character that November for a long time after that. I am sorry for that, you didn’t deserve that from me.

I appreciate the apology, but this wasn’t actually me. I’ve never played Ruby - though I was online and of consensus with the player at the time.

[Testament]

@hellfrog Well, I sure look dumb now. Still.

[hellfrog]

@Testament I’m sure I did something else worthy of being mad at! It takes a big person to own their feelings like you did, anyway.

[sao]

Oh my gosh I have a lot of feelings reading this thread and I don’t want to leave anyone out by doing a contribution while message boarding from court but I’m definitely going to do a real post later. ️

[Third Eye]

I have a lot of affection for a lot of MUSHers but you know what I love to death and lulz the hell out of me in terms of how it came about?

@SpaceKhomeini is a really great dude who I played with on a thousand BSG MUSHes and went through the wars with on BS Cerberus a thousand years ago. While we’ve stayed in touch, he dropped out of MUSHing for very understandable adult reasons.

I told him the story of The Great MSB Schism and it dragged him back, dude is PLAYING again now.

This was all my evil plan. Mwahaha, and such. But seriously, dude, you’re a fantastic RPer and one of my favorite far-flung online friends and I hope our interests line up to actually be on the same game again because I’ve missed you as an improv writer a lot.

[Cornpopped]

@Testament Just so you know, I still miss your Fergus! He was the bestest.

[Testament]

@Cornpopped Thank you. It’s still the best character I ever played, or at least tied with Mihaly.

I miss him dearly. When I look back at it now, if I hadn’t lost him when I did, he likely would’ve become some heavy baggage due to the memory and association with my ex during that time of my life. I dunno. Either way, I appreciate you saying that.