Please don’t end our romantic scene by telling me OOC you have marital problems and this is why my scene with you was so great, because now you can take it with you to the shower.
Just. No. I will -never- be comfortable with you again. Ever.
ETA: I might get awkward and laugh it off and thank you but I will -never-. Ever. Be comfortable. Again.
I drew a sad Symonesse and @Herja told me to share it.
Reason for sadness: She forgot something.
IYKYK.
eta: click on it for larger image 
(god I hope none of these are repeats I’m so tired)
These aren’t all of them, just the ones with the overlays. I HAVE FOURTEEN CARDS LEFT OF 78 TO FINISH!! So so so close, they’re all inked and ready to be colored. ALL FOURTEEN. AHHH.
Dealing with the nuclear bomb that is stage 4 pancreatic cancer in one of my favorite people to walk this planet, I gotta say it makes you plug all the energy leaks in your life very very quickly. When people say they no longer have tolerance for bullshit when things like this happen, it’s a thing. Feeling guilty for having any kind of joy is a thing. Feeling a desperate driving urge to drop everything and fly across the country to try and not feel useless as the person you love and their family drown in the real, heartbreaking, fucked up tragedy of it all is a thing. So I’m sorry I’m not around. I’m sorry I’m quiet. I’m sorry that all of my focus is on something so harrowing and important; I have to bear witness to this. I’m not going to choose anything different.
ETA: I can’t keep screaming with my family about this, so the void of the Internet will have to do.
A reminder to everyone:
Just because you’re an adult doesn’t mean you can’t be victimized. Just because you think you know better doesn’t mean you’ll always listen to the red flags. Just because you’ve handled shit before with grace doesn’t mean you always will. Just because everyone in a community says ‘oh man, so-and-so is such a good dude, you should ask him for advice/insight/resources/whatever’ doesn’t mean he can be trusted or he’s without flaws, or that if he sends you an unsolicited dick video that ‘you should be flattered’. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t speak up or no one will believe you. And just because you flirted back because ‘really, everyone says he’s such a great guy/leader/whatever, the problem has to be me’, doesn’t mean you were not victimized, or that your feelings about being victimized are not valid.
I don’t know if this is the right place to put this, but I hope it reaches the people that need to see it. We have got to stop blaming ourselves for other people’s shitty behavior.
So many of these secrets made it into cat drawings and the tarot deck and I had to be so careful.
Had a down morning and couldn’t get out of the rut but then:
@Tez smashed my brain weasels and made the sun come out.
Two people got their orders and were happy about their stuff.
My mom came over and had tea with me.
My son’s occupational therapist continues to advocate for my child and it’s so fucking humbling.
I cleaned my kitchen.
I was told it’s Tarot day!
Here are some of the cards in my deck:
Pre-orders are live if you’re interested.
https://www.mahaldoodles.com/the-cats-of-arx-tarot-deck/
@Apos if I did this it would turn into
… Alright now that we’ve gone over the extensive history of the Nox’alfar,
‘let’s take a few calls’
And it would turn into an audio gossip rag, confirm or deny, where did you hear that, no that’s not true, that is absolutely true, please stop asking about mangos or the bathtub incident, I wasn’t staff then, what Skald does in his alone times is his own damn business, nobleman swerve.
Sounds fun though. You should definitely think about it.
ETA: Definitely being facetious if not outright sarcastic. 
Do people have favorite clues? Did someone already ask that?
@kalakh When you included Joscelin and Petraea’s thing in there I legit got weepy. 
So many of these secrets made it into cat drawings and the tarot deck and I had to be so careful.
Player who only played male characters, reminiscing: “… Yeah he was such a lovely guy, he was so nice to me.”
The Rest Of Us: “-are you serious? No, he was a dick. He was a sexist, manipulative douche who only gave plot to female characters he wanted to bang.”
@GF I mean I get it. If we don’t laugh sometimes, we’d cry. Right?
A reminder to everyone:
Just because you’re an adult doesn’t mean you can’t be victimized. Just because you think you know better doesn’t mean you’ll always listen to the red flags. Just because you’ve handled shit before with grace doesn’t mean you always will. Just because everyone in a community says ‘oh man, so-and-so is such a good dude, you should ask him for advice/insight/resources/whatever’ doesn’t mean he can be trusted or he’s without flaws, or that if he sends you an unsolicited dick video that ‘you should be flattered’. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t speak up or no one will believe you. And just because you flirted back because ‘really, everyone says he’s such a great guy/leader/whatever, the problem has to be me’, doesn’t mean you were not victimized, or that your feelings about being victimized are not valid.
I don’t know if this is the right place to put this, but I hope it reaches the people that need to see it. We have got to stop blaming ourselves for other people’s shitty behavior.
@Third-Eye Fighting a male PC with a female PC:
Me, roll exceptionally well in spar combat.
DudePC: “Ugh God I thought my stats were good lol I must have shit rolls or something.”
Me, having worked hard and made good choices on my stats, silent.
Me, watching it all pay off as I stomp DudePC into the floor.
DudePC: “Ugh God my armor and weapons need an upgrade, clearly doing something wrong if a woman is beating my character hyuk hyuk smh sad face lol”
Me, done: “Or maybe I know how to play my character and I’m good at it?”
DudePC, doesn’t understand why I’m ‘suddenly being a bitch’ to him.
Me:
@MisterBoring Most players don’t do what the mentioned PC did. Most players do communicate and ask questions and work with us. We didn’t write this PC off, she stopped logging in.
