In case you’re sick of those warm cuddly pets, here’s Nemo

I have had a full fantastic day of solid RP, like just wall to wall super enjoyable character development and relationship building and it’s not even over yet.

I honestly thought that kind of gaming experience was gone for me and I’m so glad it’s not.

Hello friends.

My mom is in the final stages of dementia, which means she spent the last week and a half in the hospital with a respiratory infection and I spent a lot of time with her because she can’t be left alone, along with working full time and being a mom and feeling like I’m failing everyone across the board. She has recovered enough to come home today but it’s very very likely it’ll happen again soon (it’s already happened once before this).

On top of this I am still trying to shake getting COVID last month. On top on TOP of this, I haven’t been able to get my antidepressants refilled until Wednesday. I really loathe saying I’m not okay but I’m not okay right now. I have a very strong support system, but the bench is shallow and only a little less worn out than I am.

I think I can keep from going apeshit on anyone for the next 48 hours but just in case the brain weasels win, go easy on me, ‘k?

Me, an introvert, trying to play an extrovert.

@helvetica

I think this is after I told him he wasn’t allowed to eat the cat.

When a game I want to love just makes me feel tired and empty inside.

I went to my neuro today and told her the medication she put me on got me down to 6 or 7 migraines a month (this is a tremendous improvement for me). But she looked at me and was like, I think we can do better. And gave me several other options for further decreasing the migraines.

I should have done this years ago.

I don’t feel like playing any more and I can’t really identify why. Just waiting to see if it passes.

When you’re not at all sure that something you worked really hard on is going to land well…and it lands really fucking well.

My mom’s dementia has gotten severe enough that she was put into hospice care last week. I’m doing okay, I don’t really want to talk about it but if you notice I’m scare, well, that’s why.

@Jenn My dad and I have a solid support system in place, but I really appreciate the offer. It means a lot.

My mom died today.

@Tez

@Trashcan Man, we could have been tabletopping with incels all this time?

We are trying to figure out if my mom is “actively dying”. Dementia fucking sucks.

@MisterBoring Yep! If you wanna crap your guts out for your snack foods, you gotta come to the US!

@Kestrel Parenthood is also this.

@Kestrel I finally got tired of being the initiator so I stopped. It was informative.

I went to my neuro today and told her the medication she put me on got me down to 6 or 7 migraines a month (this is a tremendous improvement for me). But she looked at me and was like, I think we can do better. And gave me several other options for further decreasing the migraines.

I should have done this years ago.

My mom doesn’t remember my name. I knew it was coming, but…still sucks.