Our first foster child is arriving any minute.

13 hours in. No one has died and/or cried yet. So this is good. She is safe at school and all is fine.

Why I didn’t RP tonight:

If some internet person changes and doesn’t do the problematic shit so well that I can’t tell they are the same person, then congrats, I’ll never know.

I have so many positive feels about Norwood’s end. I’m really happy now it wasn’t RPed out, because I’m not sure it could have been done as gracefully as the action result came out.

Norwood was such a big part of my soul that even after I came to admit I didn’t have room to actively RP any more, I couldn’t let him go. I would sign on every few days to check on him.

Everyone who was involved gets .

May I share my foster kittens with y’all here? Even if I can never find here because it doesn’t show up on Google Results. (I have it bookmarked finally.)

My foster fail Calypso is a HUGE cuddle bug. She loves to cuddle up with other cats.

My senior baby Kiva is not a cuddler, but she doesn’t mind Calypso much, and basically raised her.

So they’ve come to a compromise. Calypso is allowed to lay NEAR Kiva and Kiva will not complain. Calypso tests this sometimes to see how much cuddling she can get away with. Today it was being curled into Kiva’s tail with one Calypso aw on Kiva’s butt. It makes my heart melt.

He sees more ghosts.

Yeah - Until the very end they had me CONVINCED I was the bad person in the interactions. I fell over myself apologizing for hurting them and making them uncomfortable. It wasn’t until I found myself sobbing with my laptop on my lap at the top of a staircase that I finally realized - this wasn’t okay. It WASN’T ooc personal my female alt didn’t like their PC. It WASN’T my fault I didn’t want to RP some things. All of those were perfectly good boundaries and I was being emotionally manipulated by someone who knew exactly what to say and when to say it.

Now, do I think the person behind the screen is some kind of cartoon villain twirling their mustache, petting a white cat, and itching to press the destroy button? Nah. I think they found a way of behaving that typically results in them getting attention (often it doesn’t matter if it is positive or negative) and so they repeat the behavior because it fills a need.

If they are reading this, I hope they know that it is possible to get attention for doing the right things. This doesn’t have to be your entire internet legacy.

Tiny asshole kitten Benjamin Sisko was wrapped around my leg chewing and clawing.

I got tired of it, and now only 60 seconds later, he is asleep with his head supported by my palm.

My revenge will be letting one of the insane other six pounce him once they realize he zzzzed out.

So the trial… isn’t over. They ran out of time and so scheduled an additional two days in June. We aren’t very happy about the 60 extra days the defense gets but bio parents haven’t made much movement in the last 24 months, so what can legit happen in 60 days? That is eight more visits with the kids apiece.

Kiddo didn’t go to visit this last week because she had a fever - and she has been amazing. We are babying her a lot, but she is still getting upset about stuff then COMING BACK to regulation without losing her mind. Our only big battle was getting her back into her own bed from the nest wr made her on the floor next to ours.

Child’s parents are having their termination of rights trial this week. On the advise of all of the professionals husband and I did not go. Our kiddo is the most emotionally affected and we want to be present for her - and also not hear/see the garbage/evidence put up and have it impact our opinions on things. (We know that the parents are going to try to paint the kids as liars who just made up stories during the forensic interviews, and that the county is putting up poster sized images of what kiddo has drawn in her journals.)

But hearing NOTHING is driving me beyond madness. Especially since child is home sick with a fever I’m 95% sure is nerves. (She wants to go home to mom and dad but also can’t argue that she feels safe and loved with us and doesn’t want to leave us either.)

Some of my students are scared. A LOT of my foster family friends are scared. My caseworker is stressed AF. The county has 54 foster families, and some of those are undocumented because they are kindship placements. Losing them would rock the system - oh, and they’re facing budget cuts.

I know it is hard and I respect people wanting privacy so much.

Kid walks in this morning crying. His father died over break, like, early break. It is true. Teacher is blindsided and has no idea what kind of supports are needed.

@KarmaBum
This is insane.

@helvetica

I loved being an adult parent to adult children. Multiple people played Adalyn to Norwood and I enjoyed them all.

@Pavel
This is exactly what I needed! Thanks!!!

When I upgraded my phone my old reliable mud client - Mukluk, vanished! Can’t find it on the play store either. Tried searching for Blowtorch, but alas, it also was not there.

Anyone know of a solid mobile-friendly app or web-page that I can use to check in on my games, even if I can’t actively play? I still like my friends there!

Child has informed me that my therapy is stupid, but hers is essential. I don’t need therapy because I’m an adult, and she does need it because she’s a kid.

Celebrated the girl’s 8th birthday.

Also celebrated that we are officially her longest foster family.

She said recently that if she can’t go home to her mommy and daddy that she wouldn’t mind us adopting her.