Best posts made by Sillylily
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RE: Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent
So I bit the bullet and did it. This is pretty much a last ditch effort to keep a roof over our heads but I know everyone is struggling right now. Thank you for reading.
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RE: Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent
Moving in the midst of medical procedures.
Trying to figure out how to move with one and a half people. My SO and I don’t have many friends nearby.
Packing.
Having no job security.
Being in that shitty medium place were I currently make too much for income restricted apartments, I make too little for an apartment that isn’t restricted unless I want to up my already 2 hour one way commute towards 3 hours…
Ridiculous problems but I needed to vent.
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RE: MU Peeves Thread
I just want to write fun stories with people. My mu peeve for the month is me…
I don’t like the timing, stupid awkward to get an ic position then be dragged off by rl. :C The brain weasles are having a field day thinking staff and players are annoyed/inconvenienced.It bothers me that I may have forgot to do necessary steps for plots and/or actions or if I’d promised things to people and I’m keeping them waiting.
I know I have a few descriptions I owe a few people… but damned if the memory muncher hasn’t eaten the names and descriptions…
Me… get with the program…
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RE: An Arx Peeve Thread
Feeling aimless. My own lack of inspiration, nothing about the game, just me having no idea how or where to direct my player-bits
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RE: The Arx Secrets Thread
I didn’t have a whole lot of time with it but Aconite was Construct crafted by Obsidian and his Magisters in a ritual under Ahj’on in the temple of the Great Reflection to be a Weaponto destroy all non-believers. She was taken out of the Mangaldissi by some slaves who found themselves on the wrong end of a fight with Fidante.
Aco was so poisonous, even touching her briefly held some risk. Contact could range from severe hallucination and euphoria to just ded. She was poisonous right up until her Crossing. Her blood was so caustic it melted people’s limbs off. Needless to say she was just a little aloof and strange due to this.
She explored her roots, where her ‘family’ came from and found out that the bloodline that Obsidian used to create her were a bunch of Serpent Khati who got it into their head to worship the Abyss and set roots in the Saffron Isles. Some of them became shards.
The rest of the story I love but it’s probably boring to anyone but me.
I really enjoyed playing Arx, getting to cobble words together to build great stories with all of you was really the best times I’ve had on a mush in over a decade. I hope to meet folks again in 2.0.
You’re all really amazing! Also Apostate is as previously mentioned an utter Rockstar, a legend. I appreciate him letting me take on this story with an OC right out of the gate.
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RE: How dangerous is VASpider?
@Pavel Because it is always a good idea to tell someone to be cautious and create real fucking boundaries with someone who has a history of not respecting them…
Spiders online shit affected real life relationships of people who trusted them. Spiders RL shit affected online relationships of people who trusted them.
People like this need to come with a warning label. Period.
If people wish to proceed either way let them do so with eyes wide open.
ETA Note: I know it feels weird for people to be lingering on this sometimes years later. In most cases normal healthy adults who’ve matured and even some who have gone through therapy.
My rebuttal is this: How deep does someone have to scar another person for them to remember it let alone have it color how they interact with others years later?
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RE: How dangerous is VASpider?
@spiriferida If Spider has become self aware and has changed then they will understand why people have this reaction.
Recognizing trauma that one caused, accepting it and not redirecting blame a big step for former abusers.
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RE: MU Peeves Thread
@Pacha I feel this so much… (incoming rant to commiserate not detract)
I try to play ‘off the radar’ i.e, ‘As little contact with staff as possible’ with the idea staff is only there for paperwork and banning. This includes being extra careful around staff alts and their packs/coterie/club/org/cults. If they make a ruling: I accept it as if I were sitting at their GM table. Arguing doesn’t serve anything but to get me on a shit list… and that’s no fun. (I don’t want to leave and lose the quality rp I’ve found in the shit show. I’m willing to put up with a lot for good writing. )
Largely on WOD games it keeps me able to rp and I’m a lot less stressed …
It’s not the best strategy (so maladaptive) on Mu* but its definitely an effective way to exist in a online gaming setting.
Unfortunately that has screwed me on non-WOD servers…
Upside for nonWOD mush: I only rely on me for rp and it has allowed me to rp with as little help from staff as possible. I can rp without touching the plot or npcs. This is nice if not effective for getting involved in plot.
Downside: I literally avoid staff and trip all over myself to make sure I’m not bothering them if i do have to interact… this includes with staff bits and npcs or even just ooc saying ‘Hi’. This makes involvment difficult and anxiety inducing. And I get the feeling that I’ve missed interacting with some pretty awesome people.
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RE: Plagiarism
I’ve had a whole concept and creation ripped off. The only thing they changed was the name. Imagine my surprise when I created a new character only to run into myself, a character still active on another mush…
It was so similar that it could only have been a staffer from the other mush…
I asked why she had my bit. She said she just really liked it…
Really soured Cajun N. for me.
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RE: MU Peeves Thread
Baulders Gate and Genshin Impact are my peeves this month. Literally sucking all my attention from every single thing…
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RE: The Arx Secrets Thread
He was a belated but wonderful inheritance.
(oocly, icly Aco has opinions) still going strong and well loved. -
RE: MU Peeves Thread
That brainweasle that’s telling me that I cannot and have nothing contribute to a game, its scenes or its plot. It makes me freeze up and want to apologize for wasting people’s time.
I know it’s brainweasles. I know no one thinks about me enough to dislike me. But damn if it doesn’t make it hard to initiate.
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RE: How dangerous is VASpider?
@RiotDawn The danger also extended to friends of people they were ‘friends’ or close with. Not just the people they “like”. It seemed as though if they felt like someone was getting “too much” attention they’d make every effort to drive them off… not only with narcissistic tactics to isolate friends but with seriously toxic and insidious social manipulation and malicious gossip for those that they felt were a threat to their “friendships”. They have done this across mediums and social platforms and over years.
They don’t have to be grooming someone to abuse them.
It’s entirely reasonable to use caution and clear boundaries in future interactions with someone like this. If they’ve changed, they will understand.
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RE: MU Peeves Thread
@Coin said in MU Peeves Thread:
@Pacha said in MU Peeves Thread:
I have realised that from years of playing in WoD MUSHES, I am so conditioned to staff wanting to breathe down people’s necks about every little thing that I get incredibly anxious when I see other people RPing about something my character did—even something super innocent. It brings me out in hives that someone is about to send me a shitty job to tell me I am WRONG and BAD.
I think it is nice that games are a lot more chill these days, but I think it probably speaks volumes about the general state of WoD games that my most comfortable state is to be completely under the staff’s radar because staff on a WoD game paying close attention to what you’re doing is almost universally bad.
@Sillylily said in MU Peeves Thread:
@Pacha I feel this so much… (incoming rant to commiserate not detract)
I try to play ‘off the radar’ i.e, ‘As little contact with staff as possible’ with the idea staff is only there for paperwork and banning. This includes being extra careful around staff alts and their packs/coterie/club/org/cults. If they make a ruling: I accept it as if I were sitting at their GM table. Arguing doesn’t serve anything but to get me on a shit list… and that’s no fun. (I don’t want to leave and lose the quality rp I’ve found in the shit show. I’m willing to put up with a lot for good writing. )
Largely on WOD games it keeps me able to rp and I’m a lot less stressed …
It’s not the best strategy (so maladaptive) on Mu* but its definitely an effective way to exist in a online gaming setting.
Unfortunately that has screwed me on non-WOD servers…
Upside for nonWOD mush: I only rely on me for rp and it has allowed me to rp with as little help from staff as possible. I can rp without touching the plot or npcs. This is nice if not effective for getting involved in plot.
Downside: I literally avoid staff and trip all over myself to make sure I’m not bothering them if i do have to interact… this includes with staff bits and npcs or even just ooc saying ‘Hi’. This makes involvment difficult and anxiety inducing. And I get the feeling that I’ve missed interacting with some pretty awesome people.
The fucking trauma, y’all.
Precisely. I know there are awesome people staffing and running games. I know I’m missing out but…
The tingling dread weasles are conditioned to flail at the first sight of a wizbit …
Insert a ferret freak out gif here I can’t add because I’m on a phone.
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RE: Real Life Struggles/Support/Vent
I really need to scream into the void right now.
I know this is a first world middle class problem. To preface, I’ve been living paycheck to paycheck for a very long time and i have panic attacks on public transportation. This vent is long and complicated … I apologize…
In 2021, just as we were starting to look for a new place, when covid restrictions were finally lifting, and our car threw a rod. So we were forced to use our moving funds to make a down payment on a cheap but newesh car. A mitsubishi mirage for 28000 plus interest. It would look shiny on our credit report and a new car was less likely to come with hidden costs. The payment wasn’t bad an we got a good loan from a credit union. We thought we’d be okay, because we didn’t know (like the rest of the us) that rent was about to increase drastically. It jumped 400+ dollars in our case which swiftly went to battle with the new car payment… and unfortunately the car itself. We’ve found - because it did not do well in the us - parts fior the mirage are expensive mostly because they have to be ordered from out of state. I.E. We lost 3 tires and the spare over the course of the year to various pitfalls in our states crappie roads. We literally had to buy the tires through the internet ourselves and have them shipped to the shop. Thats how rare parts fir our car are…
This has eaten our savings but we were confident we could scrape together enough to move to a studio somewhere, closer than my current 2 hour commute. This May we finally paid off the interest and began paying off the car itself…
So we’ve been juggling and preparing the best we can to move this year, it was going to be tight but manageable until Black Friday. My husband is a private contractor to deliver food with uber and one hour into his Black Friday run he was rear ended by a truck. Everyone was fine, the guy admitted fault right away and other than some confusion about our incident - changing 4 hands within his insurance company -everything was going smoothly. The car was drivable despite the back end being a crumpled mess. It was drivable except on days that weather prevented him from working which were a lot this winter.
It took over a month but finally we got our car into the collision shop. They declared it a total loss… Because it’s been driven so much the value of the 2020 mirage was set at 13000. Which is what they will pay directly to the loan from the credit union. Which leaves us with about 15k to pay off … I’m sure that we can refinance but the real issue… We don’t have 2,000 to put down on another car, and in the very least I still have to drive 80+ miles daily in rush hour conditions.
It’s declared totalled so our options are to sell it to the insurance company for 13k (directly into the car loan) or keep it minus the estimated salvage that the insurance company would have gotten (which comes to 11k straight into the car loan). This means we could drive and keep the car but with a lot of costs… paying for a salvage title, new plates, new registration, the taxes on the total value of the car, and whatever repairs our insurance company deems applies to our car being insurable which is more money out of pocket. This car is our lifeline, its how I get to my job with a massive commute and fear of being in crowds & my husband whos a driver doing his preferred job at all. He’s now looking for somewhere closer to home to work. I can’t work from home indefinitely… Our last resort seems to be taking out a predatory loan because we’ve already got the car loan open… which means no savings for the move in April… So… FML.
TLDR: How the hell is this insurance considered ‘full coverage’ … seriously … insert frustrated Beeker noises here
/venting and railing against an unfair insurance and home rental system