@LeeRoyBatty said in Numetal/Retromux:
You’re Scarpia, here’s how i know,
Yes. I am. It is pretty telling that you assume that this is a secret I suck at keeping, It is something I’m just too lazy to make more obvious. Veiled threats to dox people are a great quality in any MUer, especially, staff.
First screenshot — Wow! I actually remember this conversation. This is fucking amazing because of the volume of whisky it took to get through listening to you tell me that if I just wasn’t so boring and ran plots, players who didn’t exist would come out. I had to pour to refrain from reminding you that you couldn’t attract or retain players, required approval for PRPs but refused to take the time to discuss my plot pitches, and that it was you, not I, who had signed up for the role of Cam RP staff.
You claimed everybody was afraid to RP with me because I might say mean things about them on MSB. But that was not everybody, that was you. And you were the only person rain-checking me. Unbelievably enough, it typically took four or six reschedules, each time involving me waiting an hour to see if you’d show. You refused to do stuff async in the +job. Nice to see you were admitting that it was purposeful. You castigated me about my lack of respect for your time and said it was ableist of me to expect you to keep appointments because ADHD.
Second screenshot — the active cam players not minding your banning me didn’t mean much when that consisted of me and a couple who never came out of their room. If there were others, they didn’t play when I was on.
Third screenshot — This just shows that you lied to me about your feelings about that incident and had dismissed some highly relevant shit that I told you about it. And it gives the strong impression that you’d been bitching about me on your staff channel before it happened. That’s interesting because, well, we clashed at opening, and then things went along fine and fun until then. So was I supposed to have known I was unwelcome and left in spite of you saying we were fine AND approving me, neither of which you had to do?
You should explain what “The Registry” was for the people in the back.
Screenshots of you complaining about me don’t prove I was behaving badly or that I was disliked. Funny, one of the last of your lectures/rants/advice sessions was about how I should be happy because I topped the +votes and +recs every month and was obviously well-liked. +votes were just XP farming, but there’s no explanation for the +recs that doesn’t involve players wanting to compliment me. Why the hell would you tell me that when you wanted me to leave?
You are right that it wasn’t a ‘single harmless incident.’ There was a long-standing pattern of you acting like an absolute twatwurst and then getting real mad that I didn’t like it and denying that it was hostile.
Sure, I was a buzz-kill. It was ugly to watch. But I didn’t have to do anything to be a buzz-kill, besides log on and want to play. This is why you accused me of “complaining on the looking for RP channel” when what I did was join it and not say anything.
People left over your confrontational and inconsistent GMing. This messed me up – you really liked one of them and were sad they left. They found you hostile and had a panic attack when they learned they’d been RPing with your PC. This kept me questioning the intent of your hostile behaviour toward me. Which you consistently denied was intentional.
I should have left, but we’d been good friends. I liked you and gave you too many chances, and you did shit like act all delighted to see me when I did leave and logged back on again a week later to @mail someone. Still my mistake.
I shouldn’t have been there at all, since when we met you were staff on Sheltering Sky, playing an illegal alt that the other staff there saw as a problem player, and complaining about staff and other players. I knew you were untrustworthy and trusted you anyway, absolute muppet that I am. My bad.
But those bads were me being naive and loyal, not malicious. The night before you de-approved me was the actual moment when I finally and completely gave up on you.
So you’re admitting people were avoiding you and spin it as their fault for not giving you a formal ‘do not talk to me’ WHILE dismissing the whole thing sarcastically as a “hideous crime”? Bruh. That’s WILD. Shit like this is why I banned you, man, boundary disrespecting shit like this right here.
No, on all counts. That was not me. Nor was Ryen the name. The person said they did not know the other players were avoiding them and had played with them recently.
Also. “shifting responsibility onto others for not spelling it out” line is bullshit. If you want another player to leave you alone, it is your responsibility to tell them, or at the very least, stop chatting with them. “Do as I say, not as I do,” is unfair, but “Do as I wish, not as I say,” is untenable. MUs are a text-only neurodiverse space.
Y’know, I did notice that MN was dead less than three months later. What happened? Was it just no fun without somebody to fume about and blame? Did you pick the wrong replacement scapegoat and destroy a friendship you cared about?
