Posts made by sao

The only good thing about auto-aging not being a thing on Arx was staffers singing happy birthday when I remembered to age my character up.

my mu peeve is that i want to rp but i am sick and whiny and my brain is full of porridge

I am going to play it eventually, but I am not in the mood right now for a big rpg.

I am gonna leave a review too but honestly you are underpricing your work. These little guys are adorable and I woulda paid more.

PRATFALLS

okay guys I did a reading with these but I can’t remember who some of them are. WHO ARE STRENGTH AND THE PAGE OF PENTACLES PLS.

All of that is so hard. My heart hurts around animal rescue. I had to represent a defendant who stole thousands of dollars from a local rescue once. I ended up donating a thousand dollars after the case was over and it wasn’t a conflict anymore because I knew they were never going to see that restitution – not because the now clean former defendant wouldn’t try to pay but because a vet tech who went off the deep end like that will probably never work again.

I feel incredibly fortunate to have been able to wander into a local shelter and adopt the first face I looked at and her big dumb brother and I feel deep empathy for you guys who JUST. WANT. KITTY. I see these adoption events locally all the time where the shelters around here are desperate for adopting families and I hear about east coast people who can’t get a cat and I am like AAAAAH. I WISH we could mash together. Fkn geography.

Yeah I have no desire to engage with people using AI to write their poses. That’s not regressive, it is people wanting to play a different game than me. The game about teaching AI to play let’s pretend may be fun but it is not this game. It is not what I signed up for and it is not what the staffers who built the games I am on designed or choose to maintain. If a game encouraged people to use AI, or used AI to run npcs, and was open about it, it would probably not be the game for me, but it could probably be fun for others and this would trouble me not. Because we are literally talking about pretendy funtime games here and I thought it was cute when someone taught AI to play d&d but that didn’t mean I wanted to invite it into my longstanding weekend group.

This is value neutral, despite your condescending attitude. I also don’t think it is either conservative or progressive; I do not wish to play any game where I am not aware of what we are playing and other players get to change the rules without my knowledge because that is not how gaming works.

I am happy to concede that AI can be fun and useful in appropriate contexts. This is not one of those contexts. I do not want to rp with AI.

@Kassien I’m afraid I wouldn’t qualify for a public defender!

Oh my God.

Okay.

So, the whole country is I guess in a public defender shortage right now but I am only really aware of it in so far as it impacts me personally, which is a lot. I work indigent defense as a contractor in a rural county. There are only two of us left because everyone else either quit or retired. I work a lot! I work more than I used to. I never think I work enough, but all my colleagues say I work too much.

I won’t go into the details too much here, but basically, I’m at capacity. They can’t give me any more work. Somehow every time I close a case, I agree to take on another one which somehow becomes 2 or 3. Anytime a client that I have an active case with commits another crime (excuse me, is alleged to have committed another crime) I get their new one too. They recently added a third attorney so there will be 3 of us instead of 2, and they’ve hired some “overflow” contractors to help get us out of this mess to take on a limited number of clients (at a substantially higher rate of pay than I am contracted for, which… is … going to come up when we renegotiate these contracts later this year but never mind).

This post is not about how broken this is.

This post is because a thing just happened to me that I was so mad about that one discord rant about it was not enough.

This lady contacted me via 3 text messages and a voicemail over the past two days, asking me to represent her son who is incarcerated. She explained that he was really upset by something that the overflow attorney working his case said to him, so could I represent him instead. I explained that I am at capacity right now so it would be pretty unfair for me to take on paid cases. She basically explained that she hadn’t intended to pay me, she just wanted her precious baby to get to pick his public defender off the fucking department store rack.

If I ever meet this lady in person, I am going to punch her in the throat.

@spiriferida better or worse than when your plot runner doesn’t ask you for NPC name suggestions and accidentally names three different NPCs Aaron

Look, I don’t want to make you do all the work, but sometimes, just putting myself out there to ask for rp at all has been the hard part.

@Gashlycrumb Eh. You can either trust staffers to do their jobs, or not. If they’re not providing enough transparency for you to make that judgment, that’s its own issue - and may be reason enough to walk, in and of itself. I am skeptical of this tightrope you describe. The balance just … isn’t.

If you decide to stay on a place where you don’t trust the staff because you want to RP with people there, I think it’s a bad call. To be clear, I say this from the perspective of a person who has made this mistake. I would not make it again.

Life is just too fkn short for that kind of stress. This is a hobby about having fun. If you think your staffers are shady or cheating, get out now.

I’m not a staffer, I’m not telling anyone to trust me or GTFO. I am a player. I am old and tired. Just get out if they’re bad. And if they’re not? Let 'em be.

If you cannot trust the staffers on the game you’re on, consider leaving.

If you can trust the staffers on the game you’re on and you know that and are dealing with reactions in yourself that are not based on what is happening now, keep working on yourself.

Just try to be mindful of that and don’t blame the person trying to work with you now for shit some scumsucker did on X game 11 years ago.

Edit to add: I don’t think this is a problem now-staffers can actually fix. Coin is right that you shouldn’t be a dick but like… seriously, there is no one who can resolve someone’s anxieties about this except themselves.

@Floof nooooooo weasellllllllllll

@Snackness I hope it does but also taking a break is valid if you need one

I just wanna say I am really glad for the people it works for, I am just also sad because my brain donwanna work that way so I must reach for you across a chasm of ???

Rp without end just becomes stress and obligation and guilt. cannot

I remember a drama about channel greetings and people feeling super left out because some people got lots of greetings and others didn’t and even at the time I found it depressing because a lot of the time it was just about timing and noticing someone log on while actively paying attention as opposed to being identity specific and half the time I only notice someone was online when I see their disconnect message.

I think ten years is probably about right. I don’t think snackness and I were even on the same game though, I think the hobby just gets like this sometimes.